Recently my best friend had a break up. I don't know why, but I sort of feel so broken up myself after getting the news. My friend has been insisting that she is fine now, and ready to move on. Then why am I feeling so hopeless? Maybe because I had never expected them to break up. After all, my friend always insisted that "no other guy could love her as much as he did", and that they would one day marry & be together forever. Even though I personally never liked her boy friend, I was happy for her because I thought she was happy with him. And now I get to know that she opted out of the relationship because it had become more of a "compromise" than a relation based on love . If thats the case, then I am glad that she moved out of it.
But the problem is that she wants to move on quickly and marry a guy of her parents' choice "As soon as possible".
Now, would not that be a compromise too, to marry someone just for the sake of it, just to "get on with life"? Why the hell, I asked her, did she want to get into another "compromise" so soon after struggling to break out of one?
Life is after all just a compromise, she replied, her voice full of hopelessness which was so uncharacteristic of her . For once, I wished I could slap her. How could she even say that she simply wanted to compromise with life? How could she actually forget all those beautiful plans we had made for our future while at college? How could she forget the promise we had made to ourselves that we would live life fully come what may? That we would work not for money but for our own satisfaction? That we would prefer to be single & free rather than marry for convenience? That we would live in such a way that when we finally died, our souls would be free of guilts and regrets?
Maybe she has seen too much of "real life" to still hold on to the beliefs we had had as idealistic teenagers. Maybe two years of being in a corporate job has made her realize that if you can not find satisfaction in a job, then simply go for the money. If you can not marry someone you love, then simply marry for convenience. If you can not live, then simply exist...
